Tuesday, August 19, 2025

What Do You Mean by "Indigenous," Gabrielle? Are You a Pretendian?

Pretendian: Someone claiming Native heritage falsely in order to either overcome an identity crisis about having mixed ancestry (Native and non-Native) or for personal gain

     Am I a Pretendian because I use the word "indigenous?"  Um. . .no!  First of all, I do have some ancestry from Iroquoian tribes and the Pamunkey tribe of Virginia, but it's not my dominant ancestry, which is Celtic, German and a wee bit Norse.  Secondly, the word "indigenous" is not only applicable to Native peoples of North and South America.  There was a time when all the peoples of Europe were indigenous, and I happen to belong by ancestry and marriage to two groups.

     By blood, in terms of European descent, I'm descended from three indigenous Celtic peoples called the Irish, the Scottish Gaels, and the Welsh.  By marriage, I belong to my husband's tribe from Montenegro, the Njegushi.  The tribal peoples of the Balkans are some of the few indigenous peoples who survive in Europe.  

     Why do I separate the terms Eastern Orthodox Christian and "indigenous" in the description of my blog?  That's simple.  My faith is one single tradition for me, a tapestry of woven of many traditions from both my European ancestors and the ancestors of my husband's people.  But I find it important to point out the indigenous thread of this tapestry, because many earth-honouring traditions are present in indigenous practice of the Eastern Orthodox Christian faith, and these traditions have often been misunderstood and vilified by three groups within the Orthodox Church today. Those three groups are: (1) new converts to Orthodoxy who come from evangelical traditions, and think that many indigenous Gaelic traditions, for example, are New Age or Pagan; (2) a pan-Slavic movement in Orthodoxy today largely fueled by the Russian expression of the faith, in which there are many zealous individuals who think that indigenous cultural traditions have no place in the life of an Orthodox Christian; (3) a Greek Athonite movement, made up largely of laypeople attracted to the Greek Mount Athos traditions of Orthodoxy and traditions popularised by Elder Ephraim in America, which also tends to misunderstand and demonise anything that seems different, including Western Rite Orthodox traditions. 

     So, I draw attention to two things: (1) The indigenous traditions both of the Balkans and of Celtic people are so deeply woven with Orthodox spirituality that you can't extract those traditions from the practice of the Orthodox faith without doing serious spiritual damage to these faithful; (2) the cultural appropriation of Gaelic practices and what survives of Welsh traditions by the New Age has caused so much confusion that people who demonise these ways, from an ex-evangelical perspective, are out of their depth and frankly quite wrong in their opinions.  When I was newly Eastern Orthodox, I was influenced by two priests who were ex-evangelical converts to jettison the Gaelic culture which I had rediscovered and adopted in my life, because it "wasn't Orthodox."  I was told that replacing it with the prayers in the Jordanville Prayer Book would be enough.

     Submitting to what those two priests told me caused me to tear a huge hole in my soul, a terrible rift in my spirit.  Becoming the kind of Orthodox Christian those guys expected me to be was NOT enough AT ALL!  It did me such great harm, giving up essentially what was part and parcel of daily life in which every moment was hallowed by prayer, even household activities like turning on the oven, that my spirit withered up and I almost left the Church.  Since that time, although I have a very good father confessor now in my current Orthodox parish and I've left those other two priests way behind, I still feel fundamentally distrustful of Orthodox spiritual fathership. I went back to my Irish anamcara (soul-friend, spiritual father) who comes from the Gaeltacht, and when it comes to deep spiritual questions about the Gaelic aspects of my practice of the Orthodox faith, I turn to him. As a Gaelic-speaker, he understands these things and why it makes a difference to chant the Our Father, the Angelic Salutation, and the Breastplate of St. Patrick in Irish.  A Gaelic-speaker understands the necessity of saying special blessings through the prayers of the Theotokos and St. Brigid when lighting the first candles and incense of each day, or when lighting the stove.  He understands the importance of creating my own sacred songs, not only singing the set hymns of the Church. He understands the place of artistry and creativity in home paraliturgical worship. An ex-evangelical or ex-Catholic who is a product of the American educational system, which is essentially founded on WASP notions, just doesn't get it, not in my experience. 

     "But it's all one faith!" exclaims my current pastor.  "The idea that the faith is all divided up along ethnic traditions is a fallacy."  That's both true and untrue. It's true in terms of all Orthodoxy holding the same dogma and doctrine.  But it's not completely true when it comes to daily practice of the faith by ordinary people, or to variety in liturgies.  It's not true, not when certain cultural and social traditions being used--be they Serbian, Russian, Greek, or (insert Eastern European ethnicity here)--are being hailed as "truly Orthodox" while traditions from the Western Orthodox side are being looked down upon and discouraged. It is not true, when Celtic-descended indigenous people in the Balkans, like the Vlachs, are being condemned by certain Orthodox jurisdictions as being practitioners of witchcraft.  It's not true when American converts look at my celebrations of seasonal festivals from my ancestral traditions, or look at the colourful stones and Trinity knots on my Irish-style icon shrine to St. Brigid of Kildare, and accuse me of being "pagan." Nobody has accused me of that for a long time, because they found out quickly that I am a fierce defender of my ancestral heritage in Orthodoxy, but the times they did accuse me of that really smarted.  The two priests who tried to rip all of my heritage out of me in the name of making me "purely Orthodox" did damage that has taken years to heal.   

     Eastern Orthodoxy is rich, nuanced, and varied in the cultural expressions of its practice. People who try to say that this variety doesn't exist are simply adopting Russian or Greek expressions of Orthodoxy and declaring those to be a standard that must be adhered to, rather than allowing for a rich tapestry of dress, language and hymnody in the various expressions of Eastern Orthodox Christianity.  Western Rite expressions are actually part of that richness, including Celtic traditions from Gaelic and Welsh people and Old English traditions from seventh, eighth and ninth-century Saxons.  To be sure, surviving Gaelic traditions have Catholic and Protestant influences that anyone with discernment and education knows how to spot and adjust for Eastern Orthodox practice, but for the most part, pure Gaelic Christian tradition is founded in the golden age of the saints in Ireland and Scotland, before the Great Schism of 1054.  In general, the Celtic traditions in Ireland, Scotland and Wales are also more influenced by Eastern Christian spirituality than other Western traditions before the Schism. So, dismissing them as "Papist" and therefore "not Orthodox," as one Greek diaconissa (deacon's wife) did once, is the true fallacy. 

     So, to return to my answer of the titular question in this article, I'm not a Pretendian. I honour my Native American ancestors, but I don't pretend to belong to their particular cultural traditions since I've not been raised with those or with Iroquoian or Algonquin people. I can, however, connect with the indigenous Saxon, Gaelic, Welsh and Norse traditions of my northern European ancestors. I also inadvertently end up doing many things that are Balkan, things that would be recognised by my husband's people, like censing the house and gardens every day at home, because of some similarities between Balkan and Celtic traditions. 

     These, then, are my indigenous ways.  Indigenous does not just refer to Native peoples in the Americas or Africa.  It refers to any people with their own deeply embedded culture, language, religion and societal/familial traditions before being conquered by an invading or colonising group which tried to eradicate them. The Christians of pre-schism Britain were indigenous before being conquered by Germanic invaders. Then, those people, the descendants of the Saxon invaders, were indigenous before being conquered by the Normans. 

     Both Celtic and Saxon cultures blended beautifully with pre-Schism Christian teaching, which was what we call Orthodox. The Saxons, Gaels, and Britons blended their languages, artwork and many other earth-honouring traditions with the New Faith.  This is what I have found in my own research over several years. It was only after the Norman conquest and its support of the Roman See in the Great Schism that wisewomen started being doubted and demonised, priests were forced to celibacy, churches were taken away from married priests and their families, monasteries were more segregated between men and women and from farming communities, and misogyny took root in the Western churches.  

     Separate women and motherhood from the Church, and Her heart grows cold.  So do the hearts of people belonging to tribal and clan-based societies where women are honoured and viewed as equal to men.  That is my observation and my experience. 

Celtic Cross from my back garden shrine

Monday, August 18, 2025

Choosing My Free Time Activities Wisely: The Art of Self-Care

 

Meme from 1998 film Practical Magic

I just left a couple of Facebook groups and here are the reasons why. This is not a rant or complaint, just speaking the truth.  Why did I leave these groups?

SHORT ANSWER: There's only so much of me to go around, and what little time I have outside of work, school, church, and home responsibility needs to be spent in ways that give me optimum peace, joy, inspiration and energy. I need to be careful to avoid draining situations.

LONG ANSWER (TDLR Alert, but I make some points worth considering here):
     I just left a group that was dedicated to the works of a particular author because I haven't really read her books and don't have time. I also just left a Protestant group that I had joined in support of one of my classmates at seminary because I don't have extra time to contribute to her group or go to her events, though I care for my classmate. Here's the thing: in terms of my time and energy, my plate is full between school, work, my responsibilities at home (particularly supporting my husband in the caregiving of his younger brother), and doing what is necessary to maintain my own faith and practice in the church of my choice (in which I was received in 2004), the Eastern Orthodox Church. With all of that, I have very little time or energy for anything else. When I choose groups or activities outside of these four areas of my life--school, work, marriage and my faith tradition--it is vital for my soul's peace that those groups and activities are such that I will be comfortable emotionally, socially and spiritually. 

     I will not go to group events with a lot of people I don't know because I find it draining and I already have enough events of that kind that I attend as part of work and school. I stay within my own faith tradition and my own tribal and ancestral cultures (Montenegrin and Celtic) for events during my free time because generally, l experience acceptance there, whereas in other situations I often have not been accepted or understood because my culture is indigenous and as such is different. When I go to seminary events (at the school of theology I attend for my Master of Divinity degree), I'm very selective about those for this reason. I'm even selective and cautious about women's events in my own faith tradition, because of many times in the past where I felt that I had to mask too much; masking is very exhausting. 

     In short, what I want when I go home from school, work or church services at my Orthodox parish is peace and quiet. What I want more and more, the older I get, is to go into places where neither my culture, my individuality nor my personal power feel like a threat to anyone, where I can just relax and be me. If I have the slightest suspicion that I won't fit in a certain environment or event, I engage in self-care by staying away. If I have to hide my light under a bushel to make other people comfortable or shrink to avoid them feeling threatened by my gifts or vibes, then the place or event where I would have to do that is NOT where I need to go! I do neither myself nor anyone else any good in such a situation. I'm studying to be a lay healthcare chaplain. As such, I have learned the hard way this summer that I don't need to insert myself into situations where people might be uncomfortable. The same concern about other people being uncomfortable also needs to be applied to myself. This is why I'm cutting back on groups, and being very selective about where and with whom I spend my free time. If I come around you, feel honoured! It means that I see you as respectful of me and safe to be around.

ONE MORE NOTE: Some people have said before, "But Gabrielle, you should branch out in other groups to be an indigenous voice and to take up the challenge of stepping outside your comfort zone." Here's what I have to say to that: I spent the whole first half of my life outside my comfort zone, trying to fit in with people who fundamentally were not interested in accepting me or investing in my presence. My indigenous voice was UNHEARD because people didn't want to listen. They wanted instead to shape me into their own images and make me what THEY wanted me to be so that they would be more comfortable. So, I now sing my songs to those who want to hear them. 

     Granted, I took up the mantle of being a healer during the pandemic. Healing gifts are for helping everyone. But we must remember something important: people whom we might want to heal must be willing to undergo that process. A lot of people like to walk around unhealed because it's more comfortable for them. At 55 years of age, I'm done forcing my gifts and skills into spaces where they aren't desired. God does not force help or grace onto people; they accept it or move towards it of their own free will. The same is true with someone of my calling, though I will always pray for everyone regardless of what behaviour I encounter from them when I'm out and about. That still doesn't mean that I walk willingly into a potentially hostile forest; doing that is not wisdom, but foolishness. Does a bird fly into a cage, or does an antelope wander into a lions' den?

Celtic cross with harvest colours, designed by Ava, purchased and used with permission